Weekend Update

With Tina Fey.

Over the past few months, Amelia's life has been, to put in one simple word, Tiring.
You would think with no school and only working 40 hours a week, Amelia wouldn't be so exhausted. WRONG....

I've been attempting to be as productive as I can since I feel so guilty about not going to school, but it seems that nature is trying to kill me. I swear, it's one disease right after another. I've has random flare ups of my tonsils on and off for the past couple months until they started hurting to the point I couldn't swallow anything so I went into the doctor before my target benefits expired and found out I have strep. I was hoping to be completely cured by now, but I'm pretty sure due to my lack of caring for myself, it's coming back again...
On a lighter note, I started watching Lost thanks to my new boyfriend Netflix. I've gotten through almost all the seasons in about 1 1/2 weeks... Don't be too impressed. I'm so addicted to Netflix, it's almost tragic how much time I spend with that instead of a real life boyfriend. Speaking of males...
No. I am not dating anyone. I just can't get myself to actually try and make things work with anyone. I should think that is a positive attribute, right? I mean, who wants to be dating someone just because they want to be dating someone? I for one am extremely picky and I have a right to be. I think I might have a skewed vision of how dating and guys should be but I can always blame the media later on in life when I'm an old cat lady.
I'm still trying to find an internship that won't conflict with my job too much since Target is basically putting me through school. I've heard it's really easy to get into radio station internships, but television is a whole other story.
I also have more responsibilities at work now. They moved my coworker Rachelle up the front lanes and completely did away with the Specialist positions (Shoe Specialist, Jewelry Specialist, etc).Instead of of only being in charge of half the clothing section, I'm over all of it. That's practically half the store. It's only been a week of this new job and I'm already stressed. I have some conflicts with some of the girls that work for me, but I'm hoping they can either get over it and help me out or move departments because I run a tight ship and no one gets away with anything! Not even me.
I talked my roommates into starting to foster animals from the Shelter. I really wish I could get down there and volunteer again but gas is expensive and I get so sad seeing all of the lonely animals. This way I can help out a few at a time. I also gave up meat for lent and I'm hoping for good. I just feel so guilty when I'm eating meat. I know I'm being silly, but I love animals and don't ever want to be the reason for their pain :(
I'm also hoping to take part of this life learning seminar thingy that my roommate, Amy, took part of. It's kinda to help you understand your goals in life and start trusting yourself and other people... since I definitely need help with both of those. It's expensive but Amy was telling me that a lot of people donate and sponsor people through the workshops since it has helped them so much. I'll let you know how that goes since I'm excited to see what it's like.
I love my roommates, it's the perfect blend of privacy and hanging out. I love that I can just be by myself or hang out with them whenever I want, whereas before my roommates would make me feel guilty if I wanted to stay in my room. It feels like home I guess. Su Jin is an awesome cook and Amy and I like all of the same movies. It's just wonderful!

To end on a note of inspiration... If Gwen can open cabinets, so can you.

Milo.

Just the Rain

The Clouds
The majestic

Clouds
Storming

Lightning
In my chest
The misery of
The Clouds.
Rain dropping

So Loud
Rain

Hammering
The noise
Never satisfied
With just the

Rain.

Thanks a lot

For rubbing in my face how much I suck at making Gone with the Wind

Christmas

has made my life a living HE double hockey sticks

Silent Silent Silent

Aren't you scared of feeling pain?
Being left to die?
Lonely, but never alone?
I am.
Facing your fears is trying to face a demon.
Crazy twisted world, full of torture.
Reminders of a distant time,
set to nag,
and wound to drive your life through your lungs
and out your throat.
Danger seems so safe and so alive.
I'm feeling the conformity and the pent up rage at myself.
Stop it all, take it away,
dull the knife
and remove the blade.
It's not worth trying if it's not worth dying.
No more confusion.
I am allowed.
I am vibrant.
I am Amelia.
I am me.

Everyone keeps posting recipes..

Here is my recipe for Chicken Bake, it's delicious and nutritious. I got it from my friend Rachelle and I put a few modifications on it.

3 Chicken Brest (dethawed)
Three large potatoes
1 cup of Zesty Italian Dressing (I put in half a bottle because I LOVE the taste, but you can't put in too much or else it will over saturate the potatoes)
1/2 cup of Parmesan cheese
Vegetables are optional. I add about 1 1/2 to 2 cups of corn.

Preheat oven 425

Cut up the chicken and potatoes into about 1 inch by 1 inch squares. Toss them together into a glass pan. Drizzle the Dressing all over the potatoes and chicken, mix in if you want more covering. Sprinkle the cheese all over the top, add more if you can't cover it to your liking (I like a lot). Bake for one hour, or until browned on top, I do it till the top tips are black.

This is super easy and makes for a delicious main meal.



Cinnamon Apple Jello

1 package of Cherry Jello
1/4 cup of Red Hots (Cinnamon Candies)
1 1/2 cups boiling water
1 cup regular or cinnamon applesauce

Boil water and mix in Red Hots and Jello until Red Hots are dissolved. Cool and stir in applesauce. Pour into individual bowls or mold. Chill till set.


Enjoy. These are two of my favorite dishes.

I was going to marry this sucker

Break my heart and lead me to death
A life's not worth living if I'm living it in regret.
Channel the pain into another soul
And leave me here, bruised and all alone.
Intrigue my mind into a dusty aroma
And then lead me to my final bed, knocked into a coma.
Silence the words of ignored insolence
This is so hard to write but you were my prince.
Now my crown is thrown down and I lay at your feet,
Will you leave me here alone in my defeat?
Just take my hand one more time and let me see,
The best person I ever knew was never meant to be.
The shattered blood pumping crystals through my veins,
Meet my demise so quickly, so tame.
So I am begging for your forgiveness even when I know it's too late.
All of my heart is waiting for your time abiding twist of fate.