Drama-Rama

I can feel my life changing

2011-02-08T18:20:00.000-08:00

I always do what I want to do, when I want to do it. Knowing that my priorities have changed in my life is driving me to change more things. I took out my nose ring and my extra ear piercings. I am going to sacrament meeting. I lust after RM's instead of drummers (let us just be happy that the demographic changed). I work hard still, but I study harder. I join school activities and clubs instead of sitting home all day. Sometimes I miss how easy my old life is, but I love the excitment and the constant feeling of success in my new one. Now, I just need to quit Mountain Dew and all will be well.

Is in her dark place

2010-12-02T18:52:00.001-08:00

The past couple weeks have been trying to say the least. Working at four in the morning, doing school,not getting any sleep, etc. I have just felt so overwhelmed and helpless and extremely antisocial. I know that a lot of it due to having Seasonal Affective Disorder, but I have never had it this bad before. Thankfully Josh left a book at home on accident or on purpose, but I'm pretty sure something was telling him to leave it right in my sight path so I would see it. The book is all about S.A.D. and how to cope. I wasn't as impressed with the book as I wanted to be since most of his solutions revolved around light therepy, and that's what I don't want. However, he did have some good points on symptoms, diagnosies,and a few other treatments. One of the things he said was how negatively eating bad food is for improving your mood. So I quit Mountain Dew and started exercising and tanning again. I have felt awesome! I feel skinnier, more energetic, less sleepless, able to focus more, and I want to be around people again. It's crazy! I'm only tanning once a week and it seems like that's all I need so don't freak out you crazies. I did have a Mountain Dew today because I felt so sad.
My friend Tony that I dated like three or four years ago told me that he can't hang out with me or see me anymore because his girlfriend didn't like it since he just barely told her about our past. He can't forgive himself for our relationship we had forever ago. He can't let go of the past. And now I'm angry because I feel like after I had finally forgiven myself, he is pulling me back into the negative feelings. I kept thinking that if this is what happens when people find out about your past then why on earth would you ever tell someone?
After talking to Jocelyn about it, I was contemplating, when is a good time to tell your significant other about your past life? Is it sooner in the relationship so they have a fair warning of the baggage you carry, or later so they have a better understanding of who you are? I have decided later is better. I am not the person that I used to be and I want people to see who I am now, not who I used to be.
So I finally told my friend good luck with the girl and left it at that. He shouldn't have to have his girlfriend always wondering about our friendship and I shouldn't have to be reliving all of the painful memories.
Man it feels good to get that off my chest!

I'm gratefull

2010-11-22T10:44:00.000-08:00

for my sassy mouth. I like making people laugh so you can imagine this comes in handy.
for my ambition, so I don't end up selling drugs to make ends meet.
for Gwen. She's the best!
For the arts. I love music and painting.
for clothes. Oh how I love you.
for my friends that are still friends with me even if I don't hang out with them during school.
for boys. Because they always make me think I can do better.
My boyfriend, Netflix.
for journalism opportunities.
for books since I get bored too easy and I don't want to be an ignorant hick.
FOR PEOPLE WHO MAKE IT EASY TO MAKE FUN OF THEM. YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE.
For my pa. I luf him. And ma.
for Chris's sarcasm.
for Maren knowing me better then I know myself.
for Stephanie listening to every single stupid little thing that happens to me.
for Jocelyn's care and always knowing what to say. Even if it is a swear word.
for Josh's girl problems since I always know how to answer them.
for Alex STILL NOT WRITING ME.

Let's talk music

2010-11-17T18:06:00.000-08:00

I didn't realize how much I counted on music until I wasn't able to use my iPod for two days last week since I kept forgetting to charge it. I was in H.E. Double Hockey Sticks without it. I listen to my iPod in my car, at work, doing homework, walking to and from class, while trying to sleep at night, showering, doing yard work, cooking, etc. I wonder if everyone feels this connection that I feel with music? I always have a song stuck in my head. I always end up singing or humming something if music isn't playing. I'm envious of the people with these incredile voices and musical instrument talents. I love the way that music makes me feel. I love that I can listen to a song that expresses exactly how I am feeling, calm me down, pump me up, give me a feeling that is so happy and content, even give me hope. There are so many songs and genres that create so many different emotions. Can I tell you my favorite thing about my iPod now that I've had it for 2 years? My Top 25 Most Played Playlist. Best thing ever created. I can listen to that playlist over and over since it's everything I love about music. Prepare for my current top 25.

1. Britney Spears- Gimme More (This was actually an accident. I left the house with this playing on repeat for a couple hours...)
2.One Republic- Apologize
3.lisa Loed- Stay
4. Miley Cyrus- See You Again
5. The Rocket Summer- Brat Pack
6. Linkin Park- What I've Done
7.Secondhand Serendade- Fall for You
8. Lady Gaga- Bad Romance
9. Aly & AJ- Potential Breakup Song
10. Lady Gaga- Poker Face
11.Hyper Crush- This is my life
12. Cascada- Everytime We Touch
13. Hilary Duff- Stranger
14.Framing Hanely- Lollipop (Remake of a Lil Wayne Song)
15.David Lanz- Christifori's Dream
16. Fefe Dobson- Watch me move
17.Good Charlotte- I Don't Want to Be in Love
18. Ke$ha- TiK ToK
19.Breaking Benjamin- The Diary of Jane
20. Goo Goo Dolls- Sympathy
21.Debussy- Claire De Lune
22. Ashley Tisdale- It's Alright, It's Okay
23.Cobra Starship- Good Girls Go Bad
24. Jimmy Eat World- Hear you Me
25. Kat de Luna- Unstoppable.

HONORABLE MENTIONS
Katy Perry- Teenage Dream
Lit- My Own Worst Enemy
Anberlin- Feel Good Drag
Any song of Fefe Dobsons
The Killers- Human
Glee remake of Journey's Faithfully
Brand New- Seventy times seven
Taking Back Sunday, My Chemical Romance, & The Used (Music will never be as good as it was when these guys were big)
The Moody Blues

There is a reason these performers are revered. They have/had talent, drive, and ambition.

STOP PDA

2010-10-10T21:22:00.000-07:00

Do you want to know how much I get creeped out by couples making out all the time? Well get ready because everything I say is from watching people close to me.

Seriously people. Get a room. No one wants to watch you press your lips together in a "we're so in love and we're going to prove it to everyone by kissing each other all of the time" way. Instead of grossing me out with your inability to stop touching each other with body parts normally used for eating, please go to another room or contain yourself so everyone in the room can have a normal conversation with you that doesn't involve us avoiding making eye contact with you because we are so embarrassed for you. I don't care if you are in a new relationship/marriage whatever. I respect you enough to hold back, so maybe you could respect me enough to keep your tongues in your own mouths. Make babies on your own time. I don't wear revealings tops because I want people to be comfortable when talking to me, just like you shouldn't be PDAing the crap out of your significant other so people are comfortable talking to you. Respect is a two way street. This isn't England so please drive on the correct side of the Respect Road.

The end and GOD BLESS AMERICA!

Glee

2010-10-06T18:44:00.000-07:00

A few of you have been asking me whether Glee is worth the watch or not... This is why it's awesome....

1. So many funny one liners.
2. Awkward moments like crazy.
3. I cried my eyes out when I watched the last one with the heartattack.
4. They cover a variety of music, it's not just pop and show tunes, they do classic rock and some pretty good oldies.
5. There is a jewish kid in there with an orange jew fro.
6. Britney Spears.
7. The theme of the show is ultimately accepting others for who they are.

If you're not convinced, please watch my new favorite clip. I almost dies laughing at the very end.

I love this show so much!

Humane Society

2010-09-16T09:09:00.000-07:00

Appearantly I don't communicate enough about what I am doing other than complaining about work. I started volunteering and the Humane Society again. I had such a hard time when I did it for six months a couple of years ago but I felt that need to start doing something productive and stimulating other then school and work. I still find it difficult going in there week after week and seeing the same cats over and over again until they get taken away for one reason or another that normally doesn't have to do with adoption. My ultimate goal is to be able to be an adoption counselor, but I'm finding the training and mentoring sessions very tedious and difficult to schedule because of work/school. Another depressing part is seeing how irresponsible people treat their animals and the reasons why most animals arrive to the shelter. It's mainly a moving situation but more often then not it's because of neglect. Breaks my heart.
So my average day of volunteering starts with me coming in and saying hi to the front desk girls and grabbing my volunteer apron. I mainly work with the cats and hardly work with the dogs because most of the volunteers work with the dogs and the cats don't get enough attention. I always sanitize like crazy. A couple weeks ago, some idiot, either a worker, guest, or volunteer didn't sanitize between kennels so they had a massive outbreak of kennel cough. Look it up. Not pleasent. So I spent most of the shift cleaning the kennels and trying to clean the cats eyes and nose and cuddle them so they are warmer and the fever isn't so unbearable. Anyway, I come in a see who is meowing the loudest and go take them into the aquiantance rooms and play with them for a bit. I normally do this for about an hour and then move to the unpleasent tasks... Making sure the litter is full and pooper scooping, water, food, fresh towels, fur brushing, etc. I try to see if the workers need me to help with anything, then I peace out unless I want to cuddle some more.
The down side to this is that I have to shower and wash my clothes right away or else Gwen can get super sick. I haven't been the best at keeping her up on her shots, but even if she was fully vaccinated, she would still be extremely succeptible. I also get pretty depressed for the rest of the day, but I think it's worth it, because my ultimate goal in life, besides being on E! is to be able to help drive for harsher punishment for animal cruelty and to find a solution of overpopulation of cats and dogs.
Lately, there has been a lot of talk to about registering convicted animal cruelty offenders on a list like a sex offenders list. I have listened to both side of the arguement and can see how this might affect some people negatively, I can also see how it will help deter more crimes and prevent further abuse. I for one would like to know if my neighbor has been convicted so that I know if Gwen should be allowed to go outside or not. I also might have a little skewed vision on animals and see them as innocent and defenseless as children. The down side of this is that punishment for animal cruelty is not as harsh as it probably should be. Each state is different on their laws, but for the most part, the awful stories I read about normally end in maybe a year in jail. Let me remind everyone that serial killers start out as animal abusers... Shouldn't someone who has a tendancy to torturing innnocent animals be sent to a correction facility to be rehabiliatated?

Anyway, enough of my rant, I mainly just wanted to say enough of the cruelty jokes, it affects me personally now.

The rumors are true

2010-09-06T19:58:00.000-07:00

Although most of you haven't even noticed or don't care, I took myself off facebook. It feels so good to be wasting my time with other things like this blog or homework or How I Met Your Mother. I had a hard time not getting on ALL of the time for a couple of days, but was still super pleased with myself that I didn't cave and reactivate that stupid site.
Time for news.
still trucking along with school and getting more and more exhausted each day. I am taking Music Appreciation, which I loved because we listen to a lot of classical music, Early American History, super easy, Broadcasting, I'm starting to work with the college's television station already, and of course, that Health class everyone has to take. Only this time I don't have to have mom sign a form saying it's not okay to talk about reproduction to me.... Mom....
I've been debating a lot lately about whether living with Amy and her boyfriend who is probably permanently moving in around late October was the right thing for me. I woke up a couple of mornings ago and just knew that the right thing for me to do is to move out if he moves in or doesn't stop hanging around all of the time. I love Amy to death but I have a really hard time getting along with her boyfriend and I already feel like this is "their" home and not "ours." So I talked to the parentals and we figured that me moving home for another 6 months or so wouldn't be such a bad idea to help me save money and figure out work moves....
speaking of Target. The morning I woke up and knew I had to move out was also the morning I woke up and knew I had to quit Target or else I would always be putting it first before my education and I would be stuck there for the rest of my life. I'm not saying it's not a possible career for me, but I know that I can't work there anymore while I'm trying to get my education. So they just hired a new girl for the promotion that I interviewed for and expected me to train her... Huge slap in the face, but I feel loyalty bound to make sure that she is completely trained and that I find a job that will somewhat support me while I am going through school.
One of the main things I am worried about if I move out is that I will lose all of the friends I have made through Amy. They are such a wonderful and eceletic group of people. It's interesting to see the Mormon housewife talking to the whore of the group about recipes. I love it. But I can tell Amy is getting jealous of the attention that I am getting from her best friend because her best friend wants me to go to church with her and wants to help me through the "tough times " I am having... Girls. So Silly.
Anyway, still dating around. Same old same old.

Amelia misses

2010-06-27T18:13:00.000-07:00

Watching Pokemon on Saturday mornings. Eating ice cream in the middle of the night. Eating out with my friends. Going to the library almost every night and staying there reading till close. Waking up at six for school. Wondering what my first kiss was going to be like. Going to sleepovers every weekend. And Colton. I hate breaking up.

Here you go

2010-06-03T11:04:00.000-07:00

Still working at Target. What a surprise. They've taken it down to one team lead in Softlines so now I run the whole entire clothing department. It's a huge challenge and normally results in me getting frustrated with my team or myself. It'll be interesting to see what happens in my store in the next couple months. One of my friends got into her radiology program and so she'll be stepping down and transfering to the Orem Target to be closer to her house. They're also opening a new Target in Sugar House and we'll probably have one or two transfers up there from the Team Leads. So then we'll be down on head count in our store. I'm trying to decide if it's worth it or not to try for senior team lead. Then I would have Leader On Duty shifts where I would run the whole store basically, plus be over softlines. However, the pay increase would be substanstial.

In my personal life, after trying for a couple months to keep my relationship with Colton secret from my coworkers, it all came out in the past week or so. Interestingly enough, not many people care like I thought they would. It helps that he doesn't work for Target anymore, but it doesn't help that he thinks our relationship isn't going to go anywhere. Hence the drama rama like crazy with him. If I'm not ecstatically happy for one minute, I'm bawling my eyes out the next. I really really dislike dating. But I'm determined to make things work as long as I can, although hopefully he will wake up and realize how dumb he is being....

I'm going to go to school this semester for just two classes, meteorology and communications. I'm excited to see what I can learn from meterorology. It looks super interesting, and if that doesn't help me get a job/internship with a readio or tv station, I don't know what will.

Now, let's count our blessings.

1. Gwen
2. My Family
3. An incredible home over my head
4. A stable job
5. Supportive friends
6. Not physically deformed
7. A lot of different ways to entertain myself, books, movies, bike, longboard
8. A gym pass
9. School
10. the Future.

My weekly rant.

2010-03-23T19:41:00.000-07:00

Pretty sure this job is draining my life away. I take naps every day now and go to bed so early. I drink a few Mountain Dews a day just to make it without killing someone. I don't know if the stress on my brain and body is worth the tuition reimbusement anymore. I feel so unappreciated even though I run half the store and run it pretty well. I am sick of dealing with girls and WOMEN who act like teenagers and fight and gossip all the time. I want to work somewhere where I don't have to wear the same thing everyday and don't have to babysit and train and yell everyday. I mainly want the bags under my eyes to go away :(

You!

2010-03-18T10:59:00.000-07:00

Weekend Update

2010-02-25T22:31:00.000-08:00

With Tina Fey.

Over the past few months, Amelia's life has been, to put in one simple word, Tiring.
You would think with no school and only working 40 hours a week, Amelia wouldn't be so exhausted. WRONG....

I've been attempting to be as productive as I can since I feel so guilty about not going to school, but it seems that nature is trying to kill me. I swear, it's one disease right after another. I've has random flare ups of my tonsils on and off for the past couple months until they started hurting to the point I couldn't swallow anything so I went into the doctor before my target benefits expired and found out I have strep. I was hoping to be completely cured by now, but I'm pretty sure due to my lack of caring for myself, it's coming back again...
On a lighter note, I started watching Lost thanks to my new boyfriend Netflix. I've gotten through almost all the seasons in about 1 1/2 weeks... Don't be too impressed. I'm so addicted to Netflix, it's almost tragic how much time I spend with that instead of a real life boyfriend. Speaking of males...
No. I am not dating anyone. I just can't get myself to actually try and make things work with anyone. I should think that is a positive attribute, right? I mean, who wants to be dating someone just because they want to be dating someone? I for one am extremely picky and I have a right to be. I think I might have a skewed vision of how dating and guys should be but I can always blame the media later on in life when I'm an old cat lady.
I'm still trying to find an internship that won't conflict with my job too much since Target is basically putting me through school. I've heard it's really easy to get into radio station internships, but television is a whole other story.
I also have more responsibilities at work now. They moved my coworker Rachelle up the front lanes and completely did away with the Specialist positions (Shoe Specialist, Jewelry Specialist, etc).Instead of of only being in charge of half the clothing section, I'm over all of it. That's practically half the store. It's only been a week of this new job and I'm already stressed. I have some conflicts with some of the girls that work for me, but I'm hoping they can either get over it and help me out or move departments because I run a tight ship and no one gets away with anything! Not even me.
I talked my roommates into starting to foster animals from the Shelter. I really wish I could get down there and volunteer again but gas is expensive and I get so sad seeing all of the lonely animals. This way I can help out a few at a time. I also gave up meat for lent and I'm hoping for good. I just feel so guilty when I'm eating meat. I know I'm being silly, but I love animals and don't ever want to be the reason for their pain :(
I'm also hoping to take part of this life learning seminar thingy that my roommate, Amy, took part of. It's kinda to help you understand your goals in life and start trusting yourself and other people... since I definitely need help with both of those. It's expensive but Amy was telling me that a lot of people donate and sponsor people through the workshops since it has helped them so much. I'll let you know how that goes since I'm excited to see what it's like.
I love my roommates, it's the perfect blend of privacy and hanging out. I love that I can just be by myself or hang out with them whenever I want, whereas before my roommates would make me feel guilty if I wanted to stay in my room. It feels like home I guess. Su Jin is an awesome cook and Amy and I like all of the same movies. It's just wonderful!

To end on a note of inspiration... If Gwen can open cabinets, so can you.

Milo.

Just the Rain

2010-02-05T14:31:00.000-08:00

The Clouds
The majestic

Clouds
Storming

Lightning
In my chest
The misery of
The Clouds.
Rain dropping

So Loud
Rain

Hammering
The noise
Never satisfied
With just the

Rain.

Thanks a lot

2010-01-23T18:45:00.000-08:00

For rubbing in my face how much I suck at making Gone with the Wind

Christmas

2009-12-28T17:18:00.000-08:00

has made my life a living HE double hockey sticks

Silent Silent Silent

2009-12-23T21:41:00.001-08:00

Aren't you scared of feeling pain?
Being left to die?
Lonely, but never alone?
I am.
Facing your fears is trying to face a demon.
Crazy twisted world, full of torture.
Reminders of a distant time,
set to nag,
and wound to drive your life through your lungs
and out your throat.
Danger seems so safe and so alive.
I'm feeling the conformity and the pent up rage at myself.
Stop it all, take it away,
dull the knife
and remove the blade.
It's not worth trying if it's not worth dying.
No more confusion.
I am allowed.
I am vibrant.
I am Amelia.
I am me.

Everyone keeps posting recipes..

2009-12-15T17:56:00.000-08:00

Here is my recipe for Chicken Bake, it's delicious and nutritious. I got it from my friend Rachelle and I put a few modifications on it.

3 Chicken Brest (dethawed)
Three large potatoes
1 cup of Zesty Italian Dressing (I put in half a bottle because I LOVE the taste, but you can't put in too much or else it will over saturate the potatoes)
1/2 cup of Parmesan cheese
Vegetables are optional. I add about 1 1/2 to 2 cups of corn.

Preheat oven 425

Cut up the chicken and potatoes into about 1 inch by 1 inch squares. Toss them together into a glass pan. Drizzle the Dressing all over the potatoes and chicken, mix in if you want more covering. Sprinkle the cheese all over the top, add more if you can't cover it to your liking (I like a lot). Bake for one hour, or until browned on top, I do it till the top tips are black.

This is super easy and makes for a delicious main meal.

Cinnamon Apple Jello

1 package of Cherry Jello
1/4 cup of Red Hots (Cinnamon Candies)
1 1/2 cups boiling water
1 cup regular or cinnamon applesauce

Boil water and mix in Red Hots and Jello until Red Hots are dissolved. Cool and stir in applesauce. Pour into individual bowls or mold. Chill till set.

Enjoy. These are two of my favorite dishes.

I was going to marry this sucker

2009-11-27T18:16:00.001-08:00

Break my heart and lead me to death
A life's not worth living if I'm living it in regret.
Channel the pain into another soul
And leave me here, bruised and all alone.
Intrigue my mind into a dusty aroma
And then lead me to my final bed, knocked into a coma.
Silence the words of ignored insolence
This is so hard to write but you were my prince.
Now my crown is thrown down and I lay at your feet,
Will you leave me here alone in my defeat?
Just take my hand one more time and let me see,
The best person I ever knew was never meant to be.
The shattered blood pumping crystals through my veins,
Meet my demise so quickly, so tame.
So I am begging for your forgiveness even when I know it's too late.
All of my heart is waiting for your time abiding twist of fate.

Shallow Eyes

2009-11-23T18:24:00.000-08:00

This fracture takes a pain, a pill, a life.
Extreme consequences from a simple mistake.
The human form of Anger takes the face,
Of the one true thing that was holy.
To hold you one more time would be,
Selfish.
Corrupt.
The rush of rage.
The thrill of pain.
The emersion of blood.
The entrance of bile.
Examine these hosts and jump for dear life.
The Fall will take you to the height of a knife,
Plunged and plugged in to my heart and soul.
The fountain bleeds crimson.
The eyes drip aqua.
The voice cries melodies.
All of this for nothing but for learning.
Light betrays it's brother,
Dark holds it's lover.
It's over now,
And I am stranded in the shallows of your eyes.

My blog...

2009-11-23T18:14:00.000-08:00

Is not for pictures since I don't have that keen eye you guys have.
I do however have poems. I am not the best but I like it and some of them have won some awards, albeit in high school, but still... So I'll post them now and again, and no I am not depressed. I wrote the previous one when I was in ninth grade and when I was suffering from teen angst and body image issues. So happy birthday America!

Remember?

2009-11-18T22:09:00.000-08:00

It’s cold here
The people are cold.
I’m warm,
I’m hot,
Nobody here cares.
Unthawable, unthinkable,
I’m hot.
Hospital corners,
A sterile bed.
I’m too hot.
They stare and point
With perfect hands
At my heat
That destroys their..
Hospital corners.
They whisper,
Icy breaths make puffy clouds,
A sinister chill.
They hate the heat.
They hate me.
I’m too hot.
The sweat,
It’s dirty…
To them,
To the blue ones,
The numb.
It’s too much
I’m too much.
But I can’t turn it down.
The heat keeps coming.
I’m burning a hole,
A hole through myself

Holla at your Ho

2009-11-16T17:56:00.000-08:00

Alright alright.
Here you go you heathens and heathenettes. I haven't written in forever and since I am determined to procrastinate my homework, I am currently watching Take the Lead (you all know how much I love those dancing movies) and stuffing my face. I work and I go to school. There is not a whole ton super exciting except trying to have good friends and continue with rebuilding my testimony. Gwen is very cute and still extremely skinny because I force her to have an eating disorder... just kidding! But seriously...
I don't even have time to run anymore. Lame lame lame!
I still hate dating and boys so I think I am okay with both of those together... I am considering changing my career since I am getting so pissed off about this research I have to do about eating disorders. Can't you just see me as a high school counselor? Cute!

That's all for now!
love ya!

My iPod won't turn off

2009-06-11T23:39:00.000-07:00

And I am starting to get worried.. I need my iPod while I am in California... What's that you say? OH, yes California. Specifically Huntington Beach with my bro and his ho.
I leave tomorrow but I feel so unprepared. I keep startling myself by thinking I forgot to pack something, but then I check.. and yes, I am just obbsessing like I always do.
Now I just need to figure out how to print my itinerary, fix my iPod, go buy shampoo and toothpaste and basically calm down.
I think that I should never be in charge of vacations. Especially for myself.
So a little update before I force myself to sleep.

First of all, let me explain how much I love my job. I love the people I work with. I love the tasks I do. I love solving problems and leading people.
Now I dislike I few things. Such as the drama mill that churns out hot fresh rumors all day long. I can't help my obsessiveness when there are new things to deal with everyday... I dislike the rude people I work with. I dislike dealing with guests. I dislike the cutting of hours so that there is less people to perform more work.
That being said, I will probably end up working at Target for the rest of my life.

I have been hanging out with a lot of my friends lately. One of my friends and her husband just bought an adorable starter house with a GINORMOUS garage and workshop area and I go down and visit them at least once a week. I have another friend who just moved up to the Avenues and I hang out with her and her neighbors once a week as well. Lisa and I have been trying to do active things but it has been particularly hard with the weather and all of the family activities going on. We have started playing tennis and hiking a lot. I wish I could say we go running, but I can't get myself to go runnning since this last time I got sick. Maybe going to Cali will help with that... Seeing everyone in better shape then me...

I am still trying to get my hiking club for kids started, but it's difficult to get a city and parents to trust anyone who is uncertified in anything except first aid and food handling... I just need more support from the city and I feel that I could probably start getting things really rolling. The only problem after that is figuring out transportation and what hikes to take the ages on. We'll have to tackle that after everything else.

I was extremely happy to see everyone, even though I was pmsing the whole time, I preapologized and therefore it's okay. It's crazy to think that Alex is on his mission. It feels like just yesterday that I was tying him and his friend Timmy up with K'Nex ropes... Hmm.

I will be going to school full time next fall. I have resigned myself to the fact that I have to go to school in order to better myself. Lame. I wish I could just be where I want to be right now... On the channel E!...

Well hopefully dad and I can fix my camera so you can be impressed by my adventures in Cali.

The world is shaped like a heart

I'll tell you what I want

2009-05-24T01:14:00.001-07:00

I just got back from the best ultimate Frisbee tournament ever.

I am a rockstar!

I played my first real game of capture the flag.

I got injured on a slide. There was blood. Seriously.

I love my friends. Rachelle and Carson. They are the coolest married couple around!

I always have some good music to listen to anywhere I am at, thanks to my awesome iPod.

In less then three weeks, I will be with Chris and Lucy whom I also love... Lucy. Not Chris so much... bahaha. I need to get my camera working so I can take a lot of pictures for you guys.

By the way, Chris and Lucy are getting married... in case you didn't know.

The rock is huge. Good job Chris.

I love butterfingers.

I can name drop the mayor of Cottonwood Heights... Don't be too impressed. It totally got me through a blocked off, drunk driving check point. Not that I was participating in that activity... the driving I mean.

My cat is so cool, I need to wear gloves to pet her.

I love when my nails are painted, makes them look better. Until I chip them off at work.

My butt hurts from all the exercise.

Target is the coolest job I have ever had.

I joined the Newspaper Staff for SLCC and will probably join their television production team as well.

I am a dating machine!

I still don't want to get married, and I am more then okay with that. I am way too selfish to share my life with someone... Except Gwen

I am becoming more tolerant with emoticons as of late. I still hate them, but I'm not so verbal about it now. It won't change anything.

Still in search of the perfect singles ward.

I love my families stupid humor. Makes my life awesome!

Bleah.

I just love life so much sometimes, I can't stand it.

If you can't appreciate the small things in life, like a nice glass of milk in the morning, or a cute cat cuddling with you in life, then I feel sorry for you. The big things don't come as much as people want or need to fill their void. Don't take the small things for granted..

I love you all!

P.S. If I had Rachelle and Carson's child, via surrogate... And then I had one of my own, and they fell in love with each other, is that considered incest? They both came from my womb but they're not the same genetics... Hmmm... yeah I did think of this when I volunteered to be their surrogate

I love BBQ sauce and telling stories

2009-05-03T00:49:00.000-07:00

It's amazing to me how much I've turned my life around....

Back in my crazy rebellion days I used to think I was so happy. I had my friends, I had my parties, I had a great job, and I normally had a guy on my arm. Life was perfect. Then stupid random things started happening to me that I took as just stupid bad things. Then Big stupid bad things started happening and I figured it was karma for some of the crappy things I had done to my family and friends. So I tried repairing a lot of my relationships with friends and family, but I was still partying, still going through boys like toilet paper, and still putting my friends before my family. I thought everything would be fine, and I didn't want to involve the church at all since I was still so bitter against it and how mom and dad always treated me differently and looked at me with disappointment since I didn't want to go to church anymore. The bad things kept coming. One day, I remade a friendship with an acquaintance and her friends. She became my new best friend and we talk all the time. I also met one of her friends who was an RM. The feeling with him and his love for the church was the most amazing feeling for me. I would love just being around him and feeling so clean and happy. A more satisfied happy from partying. I decided to try and stop drinking to see if that was why I would have such horrible down days, and because I am such a control freak, and drinking was not putting me in a position of control. I figured that even if I stopped drinking, I wouldn't have to go back to church if I didn't want to and that stopping drinking was good enough to satisfy my life. Then one night I went to a party with my roomate. I told myself I wouldn't drink and I didn't need to since I am not exactly the shyest person, but for some reason this party was so intimidating, someone passed me a beer and next thing I knew, I woke up at home realizing all the stupid things I had done. That night I went into dad's office and told him I needed to make an appointment with the bishop. After going to the bishop and starting to sort things out, things with the RM went sour, but I still stayed strong in trying to do the right thing. I miss the taste of the drinks, I miss the freedom that comes with the buzz, I miss the confidence, I miss a lot of my friends. It's just not worth it anymore. I can go out and drink a Diet Coke (I quit Mountain Dew as well... That was harder then booze) occasionally when I'm with my drinking friends, I don't get tempted unless it's been a particularly trying week but then I think about dad's face when he first thought I had started drinking and then I compare it to his face when I told him I wanted to be able to go to the temple. I still harbor some resentment towards some people in the church, and I have a hard time asking and receiving help for temptations, but comparing my life from now and then is so incredible. Before I used to never be able to be by myself. Now I love my free time and taking the time to learn. I hated the idea of school because I would have less time with friends and now I want to go to school and get my degree. I used to always hate being around my family because they were so clean and happy and I couldn't handle knowing that mom and dad looked at them with pride and me with disappointment. Granted, I'm still not perfect and I do still get wiffs of booze and crave it, but I know the aftermath would rip me apart so I don't do it. There are more stories I could tell about my partying days and more stories I could tell about the road back, but those are in person stories. Some are funny, some are sad, most of them are interesting... So basically I just wanted you guys to know that if I ever call for no good reason at all, just talk to me because I might need help with something and I can't ask for it...

Love ya.

Once upon a time

2009-04-29T20:40:00.000-07:00

In a land far far away lived a darling princess named Amelia. Now Amelia was no ordinary princess. She was an intergalactic war hero with super lean muscle mass and a nice thick head of platinum blonde hair. Little did she know it, but this girl was about to grow up and realize that no matter how innocent you try to stay, and how far you push yourself from the real life... you can never get away...

Princess Amelia's current life-

Boys are still dumb. I hate dating. I hate it so much that I never partake of that fruit. And amazingly enough, I must be sending out the mating scent or something because it's been male frenzy. I'm not putting myself out there at all and apparently that means I want you so bad that I am willing to throw away everything I have worked for... Not. Boys are too distracting and all I care about is my career and cat. C squared.

My job had it's ups and downs, but I am still trying to figure out how to become more proactive and be better. I don't feel very challenged there anymore, but I'm still trying regardless.

School... Finals. I need not elaborate.

Married men. Leave me the freak alone.

I haven't had a mtn. dew in forever. Be proud.

Going to start running again. After being sick this last time, I got out of the groove and am very mad at myself for it.

anyway, that tis all for now. Till next time my dear little lambs...

Princess Amelia

When you try to leave the drama

2009-04-24T12:05:00.000-07:00

it has a way of hunting you down and finding you...
I just can't get away!

This is for Stephanie...

2009-02-26T11:33:00.000-08:00

Here is the skirt,

And here is the super suit

LOVE YA!

2009-02-25T19:56:00.000-08:00

For those of you who are curious as to where I have been trying to hide the past couple months... I was trying to hide in my own gloom and sadness. I feel kinda pathetic that I actually let a guy get to me this bad. I've always prided myself on seeing the bright side and not getting so attached since I feel I still have so much more to do with my life, but this was just ridiculous. Hopefully I can bounce back more after I stop PMS-ing so much. Wait, what is PMS you say? Well basically it stands for Psycho Moody Schizo, they might as well just name it after me. Sorry, back on track. The past couple days are the first couple days in awhile that I have felt a little bit of my usual perk. I actually tried getting ready for work and school and I've been cleaning. My normal hygiene tasks have suffered lately from the lack of motivation... I've been in the mind frame, that if HE doesn't care then why should I? Disgusting, I know. I'll let you know when I've completely recovered... It's coming soon!
My friend got back from his mission the other day and no we're not getting married, and no I am not attracted to him. But I'm glad he's back.
I have had drama at work. I don't like talking about it since it makes me cry and I am trying to stop bringing my work home with me.
I love school. I didn't go today.. Shame on me, but I am thinking that no one wants me throwing up on them while in class. I am going to try to go to school full time next semester and we'll see how I can handle that. But don't worry, my determination to be the best is still there....

Anyway, to leave you with a sad note... I should've bought Britney Spears concert tickets when I had the chance... When she's hot, she's hot. When she's not hot, she's still hot.

I'll make this quick...

2008-12-28T22:31:00.000-08:00

So since I am cursed beyond all cursings, I was snowed in for a couple days and couldn't really get around so I spent a few days being pent up and home with cabin fever...
I am dating a few people right now.. Nothing really exciting or serious
Work is very busy, but I love it like that... Not that I would always want it like that..
I got some pretty sweet survival stuff and kitchen tools and stuff from mom and dad and Maren got me the most amazing Office T-Shirt...
Stephanie, your present still is on back order but hopefully I can order it soon.. If not then I had a back up idea.
Gwen is as fat and cute and ever.
My roomates and I are kinda getting along now.
I can NOT wait to move to somewhere where they actually do the HOA things they're supposed to do, not stupid little things...
I am still waiting to find out if I am getting financial aid, but I did sign up for 3 classes...
English
Communications
Computer Sciences...

Anyway, that's all for now, if you want more details then I will give but I gotta work in the morning so GOODNIGHT!

I AM NEVER GETTING MARRIED

2008-12-10T23:17:00.000-08:00

Tonight is a prime example of exactly why I will never marry.
I'm going to go live in the mountains with a space heater, mountain dew, and Gwen.
Then I don't have to deal with crap like this.
EVER.

ARRRRRRRHHHHGGGGGGGGHHH!!!!!

GRAWT!

2008-11-11T21:18:00.000-08:00

If I had to describe my life with one word right now, it would be content. I am still having my up and down days, but ever since I started straightening out a few things in my life, things have flowed much better. I have been working out, but not as crazily as I was a few weeks ago... I gained a ton of muscle weight but made myself sick again. I'll get it right soon. I still eat whatever I want...

On other note, I've been rock climbing with my friends down in Provo so it's funny that Josh is taking that as a class... He probably has it with some of my friends from the gym. I've also been doing Yoga. I don't know if you guys remember how big my main room is but I just push the couch over and hit the Comcast On Demand button and I'm set. I still work a lot and Target has estimated that the average team member walks three miles a day... I know I walk more then that, not just walking either.. Gaw I love my job.

I know you all want to know about the man... I don't want to spill too much because then none of you will call me, but things are at a very nice level. Not too fast which is good because I will run for the hills.

One of my roomates, Celeste is moving out at the end of this month. I am sad but it is something that she needs to do and she will continue to pay rent until we replace her.. But until that time I have my own little workout room... Anyone who wants to contribute equipment or programs is more then welcome. Anyway, she is moving to Texas with her parents and already has a job set up and school. I'm happy for her.

So to leave you on a random note... I wish it would snow so I could snow blow again.. I enjoy snow blowing...

Here is the new video for the James Bond movie.. Quantum Solace

Happy freakin Halloween!

2008-11-01T17:33:00.001-07:00

So last night was awesome!
Mainly because of the company I keep...
I had to work during the day and it was really slow and I was able to get a lot done. Set quite a few new tables in the womans dept so now I only have to worry about the rearranging of the racks in Mens and Womans and the Mens tables. Then i'm done for awhile.
So, I got off work and ran to the parentals house to pick up my costume...

I'm Angela from the Office... Don't be jealous. Those are my children. Yes, I did let them dress like that. I am a bad mother.
My GOOD friend Jordan was Dwight. It was spectacular.
We wne to a few parties, but ultimately ended up back at my house watching Reno 911...
We saw a few Jim Dangles that night so it was appropriate.

I did Celeste's hair, as you'll see in the picture. Taryn was a crazy jungle woman. She didn't need to dress up to do that... Bahahahaha

So every Wednesday I I am going up to Mom and Dad's and cleaning. Half to pay for my debt. The other half to help our aging parents... I'll be the one taking care of them... I can feel it.

Anyway... I'm Ron Burgendy?

Silencio!

2008-10-20T17:22:00.000-07:00

I rule the roost.
My feet stink from wearing ballet flats.
I hate being a girl.
I met a new boy a little while ago.
My cat is glaring at me because I just cleaned.
I love burritos.
Mad Men is the best show EVER.
I want some new clothes.
Blah.
Blah.
Blah.

Those are the random thoughts that just went through my head.
You're welcome.

ROCK ON!

I ♥ you

2008-10-01T17:54:00.000-07:00

Taggin' It Up Rules 1: Each player starts with 8 random habits/facts about themselves. 2: People who are tagged need to write a post on their blog about their eight things and post these rules. 3: At the end of the post you need to choose 8 people to get tagged and list their names.

8 RANDOM THINGS:

1. I love cleaning bathrooms. I love the clean smell, the shiny tile, the sparkling toilet. It is the most calming/satisfying thing that I can do for myself

2. Black is my favorite color. Not because it is the same color as my heart, not because it is slimming... Simply because it goes with everything.

3. I work out for an hour everyday now. It's a nice combo of jogging, crunches, and work out tapes.

4. I LOVE music. I like all kinds of music and if I listen to something, I will probably end up liking it. I do hate Reggae though.

5. I am terrified of Zombies and still have nightmares about once a week from "Dawn of the Dead."

6. I want to go into Broadcasting or Journalism for school. Can you see me hosting my own show? Regis and Amelia... Nice ring except Regis will probably hooked to a life support machine.

7. I love my sisters so much, and feel like I can tell them anything and this experience of trust is extremely new to me.

8. I love Gwen so much because she represents home and comfort to me.

Okay, 8 people: I don't even know eight people on here...

Oh my heck...

2008-09-21T19:32:00.001-07:00

My latest favorite saying....
So my life has been a little.. drug induced lately.
I've had Bronchitis for almost a month and I keep bouncing back and forth. I get better then worse. But on the plus side, I got some nice drugs for the pain but they can't really do much since it's viral. On the negative side.. I don't remember the first couple days of being sick. I remember going to work and wondering why I was there when I was just barely laying in bed and how I got ready. A little scary but more hilarious.
Yesterday was Lagoon day and I was my brother's date. It's okay in Kentucky. Promise.
Anyway, no one really got most of my jokes and don't think my potty/pregnancy jokes are very funny. My favorite moment was when I was talking about mom and dad not getting anymore grandchildren from the rest of us and then turning to Jocelyn and saying, "well not for another three months at least." She then responded... "huh?" I've learned to keep my mouth shut and not try to explain it anymore. All I have to say Jocelyn is that Stephanie got it right away.
Last week my roomate had to put her cat down. It was very sad for all of us since she was such a friendly cat. Well, really sad for all of us except Gwen. She now rules the roost. But, Sheena, Celeste's cat had Liver disease and her body was shutting down just like Bonnie did. Very sad.
I also went down to the college to talk to a counselor about what I need to do to get a degree in Communiations, particularly Broadcasting or Journalism... I'm going to start next semester and I am going to take full time again, but this time I don't have to work two jobs and I don't live such a crazy life... Anyway, I only have to take 10 more classes to get my Generals done. Now that I know what I want to do, I have so much more drive to go to school and get my life started.
I don't know if anyone watches Reno 911 at all but before the movie came out, I bought this outfit at American Appearal and decided to bust it out...
You can't see my roller skates but they're there...

And here is a picture with my life partner and eternal companion

Why Hello...

2008-08-07T09:59:00.000-07:00

So I could've sworn I posted a new blog, but I guess I didn't?
Anyway, key points in my life...

A. Joshy coming home on Saturday
B. Single again.. If it doesn't end in marriage... It just ends. Thank goodness
C. Family in town. ALL of them.
D. Work is pretty good. No drama. Hurrah!
E. Maybe I should be living by myself with the way I move through roomates?
And last but never least,
F. My Period! (F is so appropriate for this last one)

After two years of serving his mission, my bra' is coming home. Not to that skank that is married now and is going to plauge another family. He can do so much better. Oops, getting sidetracked. He's been in L.A. going door to door and getting hit on left and right by the prodominent GLBT community. I always knew he would attract them, after all, he looks like a male me with glasses. I am anxious for the food and to go to my parents cabin. I haven't been there in quite awhile and since I feel like I have made a better name for myself at work I can feel comfortable taking more time off on weekends to cruise up there.

I'm finally free again! Is it a bad sign that I can never stay in relationships without picking the male apart and leaving him for dead? I am quite possibly what they call a sucubus. Just kidding! I'm just very picky about how my men are. I like them like I like my cats, Fat and quiet.

I am loving life by always having something to do and someone to hang out with. Since I dropped my old friends I hane been something called a "loser" and staying at home all the time. Now that my family is here, I am never bored! I'm just glad I don't have that horrible attitude that I used to have when everyone comes. Ah, teen angst. Wait, what am I going to do when they leave?

I love my job. The end!

I am so done with this living with people crap. It is time to start saving my money and living myself. All the money and disrespect and waste pisses me off to no end! Someone is always late on rent, someone else is ALWAYS loud and disrespectful of people sleeping and someone else is always wasting water and power! Can't we all just be conservative and quiet and prompt?! Maybe I am a little hard to live with, but this stuff needs to done no matter who you live with!

BAH! I started my period right when Stephanie got here, so now I am cranky and sore and in pain. Hopefully it will stop before we go to the cabin next week. I wish I was normal in that area of my life.. It's such a pain in the boob. Litterally.

ha ha ha. I just read over that... I'm so glad only family reads this... Ha ha ha ha ha ha

Anyway, here is a clip from my latest obbsession... Dancing movies
Step Up 2

Oh. My. Heck.

2008-07-08T19:04:00.000-07:00

I feel like all I ever do is complain and talk about work. Is that true? I don't have many positive things to report... I'm sorry.
Sometimes my life is just dull.
I heart you all

My job is hilarious

2008-06-03T21:35:00.000-07:00

At my work, all last month, my work declared it "CelebrAsian" month. Does anyone else find that as funny as I do?

Dum Dum Dum Dun Dun

2008-05-10T17:25:00.000-07:00

Good evening and welcome to the channel four news.
I'm Amelia Corey and tonights top stories are....

1. Stupid teenagers can't do their stupid jobs because they're so stupid and lazy. Stupid.
2. Idiot comcast still hasn't come to set up our internet.
3. My cat stinks
and
4. Hilary Clinton still is a tyrant.

At my work, I swear that it is the norm to be LAZY. Why am I the only person with a little hustle to my bustle? Not to toot my horn or anything. No one can even walk fast. Stupid people. A bunch of the girls were talking crap on me the other day and saying how I was such a spoiled brat because I make them work... Heaven forbid that I make them earn their $8 an hour. Lazy bums!

Still stealing internet from the neighbors....

Gwen is having a hard time adjusting still. My poor baby. I took a funny picture of her pushing me off the bed the other day though....

Women should not be allowed to be president. What if Hilary has horrible PMS like me and ruins the whol nation suring one menstral cycle.... Unless she really is a man... Then we're safe.

Well, Goodnight and sleep well.... I have to work at 4am because I am a workaholic.

Love ya

Due to popular demand...

2008-05-04T22:01:00.000-07:00

I'm back.
I apologize. I have been extremely busy.
I'll be better next time.
I promise.

I work hard.
I sleep hard.
I am lazy hard core.

Imagine that. Me. Lazy. Ha.
Just kidding.

I really do work my butt off FYI...

If I could describe my life for the past couple of months it would use the word....

DRAMA-RAMA

Boys. Rock'n'Roll, Drugs, Alcohol. Just kidding about the last two.

I moved for those of you who care. I now live 5 minutes away from work in a very nice townhome that I live in with 2 other girls and a guy. It's.. Interesting and I think I'm having a hard time adapting with the boy, but we were desperate and appearantly, it's socially acceptable to do that now.

I've been kinda dating this guy... He's just a guy... That I kinda have a big crush on. If you want details... Call any of my sisters, because I am pathetic and I share way too much.

And for those of you who enjoy my little rebelious side.. I finished my tattoo. It's beautiful. It looks lovely on my enlarging belly and ginormous love handles... Just kidding!

At the beginning of the year, Target cut down to two team leads in the clothing area, we call it softlines, as oppossed to three. I am just now starting to feel the effects of it. I have to work on managing as opposed to tasks. I am so used to just coming in and getting my work down, now I have to delegate others to do it for me. I am so picky about my areas that I have the hardest time letting others take over situations like that. I have to be more "global" my boss says... Get out of the clothing more... Which actually slightly upsets me because I have always felt that one of my strengths as a leader there was being able to prioritize as a store and not just softlines...Oh well. I actually often get feedback like that. I don't think my boss knows me that well. Oh and I finally started making friends there.. 9 months later... I'm a sad sad little thing. Speaking of friends...

I am 20 years old. I can think for myself. I can judge right and wrong by myself. Luckily for me, all of my old friends do not possess that ability and are still living in the american high school dream. Freakin psychos. Everyone is talking crap about everyone and backstabbing each other. HOW OLD ARE WE CHILDREN?! I act immature and eccentric, but at least I still respect people enough to let them make their own decisions and not judge them for who they are and what they do. AHHHHHHH.

Anyway, I am going to try to go to Chris's soon. I was going to use my taxes money, but $650 later, my car is finally fixed. Oh well.

So now it's bed time and I have to stop using my roomates computer because we don't have internet yet and we are stealing wireless from the neighbors...

Love ya!

20 years of experience and still going strong...

2007-11-19T22:18:00.000-08:00

As I sit here in my underwear staring at my computer screen, I am brought back to a conversation I had easrlier this night with a coworker of mine. Our conversation mainly revolved around me and what a hard time I've been having lately. He gave me a lot of key points to think on, but one thing he said to me, stuck out so much in my mind that I keep repeating it so much that it just runs over and over like a race track... Never ending circle.... "Amelia, you have so much potnential. You just haven't realized it yet." He then proceeded to tell me how intelligent and ambitious I am, and how attractive it is. Me?! Attractive? Ambitious?! Little Amelia who can barely finish a lot of the things she starts. Amelia whose main goal in life right now is to successfully fit seven oreos in her mouth at once. How could anyone ever look up to me?! After that whole thought process ran through my head and sputting many various arguements against this, I finally had to give up. He gave me so many wonderful things to think about. For example, the first thing I did when I got home was look up intelligence. I know what it means, what it refers to, but I don't know what it IS.
In-tel-li-gence- n. quickness of understanding/mental ability
Definitely not me.
And how on earth can we measure this? With IQ tests? I think not. Anyone can memorize an equation and the life cycle of a star, but how many people can diffuse an angry parent from hurting their child? How do you measure that? To me, intelligence is street smarts. If you can survive the world and be a better person because of it and give me advice for it, I consider you intelligent, useful, and just plain wonderful.
When I reach the point that I can feel comfortable labeling myself intelligent, then I know that I will have suceeded. Success, never being one of my strong points, is the one thing I crave, I feed on, I demand. I anger over it, I get high off of it, it controls the world. It controls me.
To gain success is to be intelligent. To be intelligent is to have experienced. The be experienced is to have lived through a period of time.
I'm only 20. I have all of the time in the world.

Anyway, time to clean my room because I will not be sleeping anytime soon.
Love ya.

RAWR!!!

2007-10-10T11:24:00.000-07:00

Speaking of dreams...

I keep having these horrible dreams.

Everynight someone I love dies and I can't find them anywhere and I can't accept that they're dead.

First it was Greg who died to save my life from a crazy man who was shooting everyone. Then it was Maren who was trying to escape from terroists. Then my dad from Zombies. All the way down the list of my loved ones....

Why are my dreams being tortured? I used have silly, funny, happy, lovey dreams.

I think it might be the weather. Honestly. Last year when I went to a counselor, she told me she thought I got the winter blues.

I don't like the winter it always reminds me of really bad times in my life and bad things always happen in the winter. No lie.

Maybe I just need to move. I love Utah, but I NEED a change. I have been considering moving to Oregon for a long time now...

Even if I did move I wouldn't be able to do it for a year or so... Bills and debt. Blah.

I miss my family and hardly get to see the ones I do live close to.
However, daddy and I went out to dinner and saw Harry Potter V last week. That was fun. I love my daddy.

It really is true that you never know what you've got till it's gone...

Now it's time for my boy update. So I have been dating this guy from my old Target. He is kinda a jerk, but I have fun with him and he is rich (goldigger, I know). However, he is just a passing craze. I know he won't last. I don't want him to last. Still waiting on that server to dump his girlfriend... Who needs anyone when you have Gwen...

My little fatty is losing weight again and to show her protest she has taken to peeing on everything again. when she gets skinny, I'm never putting her on a diet again. She is so full of spirit and is just like a kitten except for the whole fat thing. She is always playing and cuddling and rubbing and licking. She loves me. Lucky for her, I love her to death and will probably have a breakdown when she dies. Silly kitty. The other day I pulled out my heater blanket for the winter and she hasn't left it since... Even right now she is looking at me while purring and rubbing her body all over the blanket....

Target is going good, I've been sick a lot lately but what can you do? I am taking on a lot there and am probably going to breakdown soon, but right now I'm having fun. At McGraths I'm trying to transfer over to bussing. Having a hard time doing that since the manager hates me and I am the best hostess.... Seriously. And that's pretty sad....

Anyway, time to go take a bath to try and calm the cramps since it's that time... AGAIN

much love

A very important question...

2007-09-04T02:31:00.000-07:00

In all seriousness, why is it always lemonade? Why would I chose to make lemonade out of lemons that some stranger, named Life, gave me. I would definitely choose to cook the lemons maybe in some lemon creme pie, or those delicious lemon squares. Heat would kill the bacteria and hopefully some of the poison that Life most likely put in there.
Moral of the story,
Life is out to get you and the best you can do is to preheat the oven.

Now that I have gotten that out of my system, let me inform you that I have the most completely and crazy life.

You name something, anything, and I can think of something that has happened to me. Just the other day I was with my friend Lisa and we were going up to see our friend at Park City at, yes I know, 1:00 A.M. We started out the night by locking our keys in the car, getting pulled over, and ended the night by our friends not answering his phone when we finally got up there around 3:00 A.M. Best night ever though, thanks to Lisa. However, I would advise you not to ever wear a mini-skirt to 7-11 at the mouth of Cottonwood Canyon because there are some pretty perverted old men there late at night.

Would you like to hear how I got started here? I'm sure my sister Maren would like to take the credit, but in all honesty, it was only half her influence. The other half was my older brother's hot friend, He-Who-Shall-Remain-Nameless (Chris knows who he is). I was looking at his myspace because I can, and saw that he had started one too. It was hilarious. Ridiculously hilarious. So I started thinking about how somedays I just need to write, and sometimes I need to let my family and friends know what is going on and I have no time to call before it's too late in the night. and sometimes I just need to feel like an idiot.

Hopefully by now you will have looked at the time of the blog and seen what time it was posted. Yep. It is ALMOST 4:00 A.M. This is what happens when I am sick all day. I go NUTS. Absolutely crazy. I freak out. I do everything and anything to stay busy to try to make the day go by faster, no thanks to my ovaries, but more on those later. Today I have dyed my hair, a full HOUR of yoga, finished Tess of the D'ubervilles, redid my Myspace, gave myself a manicure, pedicure, and facial, almost finished my latest letters to my two missionaries (Josh, my brother, and Nick, my BFF (Best Friend Forever)),(Do you point two of those little thingy's there?)(Can you tell it's late because I am calling those thingy's, thingy's?)(back to my day...) trimmed my hair, watched Zoolander and The Burbs, and brushed my kitty's teeth (bahahahahahahahahaha!!!). Now my cat is giving dirty looks, almost as if she knows what I am typing about. The foam was almost a foot long, sad, but a complete riot. Poor cat.

Now back to my Ovaries. Let me just tell you how sick of my woman parts I am. If it's not one thing, it's another. Either I'm being given a sign that I am supposed to reproduce ASAP before my uterus falls apart, or I'm being given a sign that I should NEVER multiply and relenish the earth. Wait, I'm only 20. Why do I care?!

By the way, random off the wall news for those of you who knew my brother Josh. His EX-girlfriend, Katie, is a officially a tramp in my book and if I ever see her, I will be giving her a royal sister chew out. She never deserved him, and now I don't ever have to have her as one of my sisters. Thank you. Do you have any idea how weird it was to have someone I was friends with in high school dating my older brother? Granted, Josh is only about a year, year and a half older, but that is completely beside the point. I am the ONLY one in this family who is allowed to date ridiculously older/younger men. No excuses. Anyway, she never talked to anyone in the family and basically acted like I didn't exsist whenever she was around me. Good riddance. Now I can set him up with some of my super model mormon girlfriends.

Let's talk about my life now. I work TWO jobs, and go to school full-time, and carry on a very active social life (if I do say so myself). I am a manager at Target and a Hostess at McGraths Fish House. I love both of my jobs. I'm very good at what I do at Target, and it's nice to finally get paid a double digit number to work my butt off for eight hours everyday. I love setting up new tables, putting out new product, organizing my department, running my team, it's extremely satisfying and stressful. Perfect. I like my job at McGraths because it is so easy and I get a kick out of knowing more then the girls who have worked there for more then a year... I can run the front like I run my cat's diet... You make the comparisons. I am finally going back to school after about a year off. I'm doing psychology, philosophy, english, and criminal justice. Hopefully, I'll be able to chose my major out of those four by the end of the semester.

Dating is so trivial to me now. I'm not going to lie and say that I'm not open to the idea of finding someone I can trust to share my life with, but I'm not even focusing more then 5 hours of my week thinking about it... Those five hours are normally spent at Mcgraths thinking about a certain Server... But alas, he has a girlfriend and I have morals (thanks a lot mom and dad. Psh.). He is so sweet and kind. He actually carries on intelligent and witty conversations with me. Did I mention he was hot? Yes. Yes he is. You all know how much I like piercings... But other then that, there is the random boy here and there. None of them last, and none of them are worth the time that I give them. Gotta find someone like Daddy....

My brother Chris just moved to Cali. I honestly think that if I ever want to go on an actual vacation, I get the feeling that it is going to happen out of state, so in a couple of months.... Chris is going to probably get a full week of me... you heard me. A WEEK. Ok, maybe a weekend. I can't afford a week yet. I hope he is having fun down there. I am completely jealous. Plus he is close to my brother Josh who is on his mission in L.A. Lucky.

Anyway, I just looked at the time again and noticed it was much later then I anticipated.

I hope you laughed or smiled while you read this. I don't even mind if it was laughing AT me. As long as you're laughing....

Much love from what the cooks at McGraths call me,

La Reina
(The Queen)